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From the Kyler Fey Tumbl (link below); he evidently has the books on the brain judging from his new dream journal entry. M-Brane Press is releasing his Commander Jace and the Strange Case of the Tattooed Twink possibly as soon as tomorrow. Though Intersex Boys of Venus is already out, this new one is properly the first episode of his series, so we might offer it as a free book for a little while in some venues.

That post has a couple examples of cool cover art from that ancient
genre. Here's a couple more that I just happen to have sitting around for some reason.
I am happy to be collaborating with Brandon Bell on a new project, Weird Bard Press, a small press focused on "socially aware fiction." Its first project, an anthology called Torn Pages, has its guidelines posted already. This particular book, which is Brandon's concept that he will edit, has a particularly interesting and powerful motivation behind it which will be elaborated upon in an article that he'll be publishing soon. When he asked me if I would knock the accumulated dust off my publisher hat and get busy on a new project, it was not possible to say no. I never even considered saying no. I decided in five seconds to say yes, because it's a cool project and it's with my favorite collaborator.
Hmm, collaboration: it ain't always for me. I don't always do well in groups (unless it's a group that I'm running). In my most private personal life, there's one person with whom I collaborate closely (he knows who he is) and the two of us are the entire group (with the cats, too, of course). In my day-to-day work-life, I do pretty well in the group (but I'm also kinda the boss of most of it, so I get my way a lot) but there, too, is one person who is my main collaborator, and he knows who he is. In my third strange area of life--this weird publishing and editing thing that's done almost entirely on computers--it's awesome to have a collaborator that you can actually get something cool done with, and in this area it's always Brandon Bell. My M-Brane Press handled his awesome magazine Fantastique Unfettered. He and I worked really hard and had great fun making our shared-world fiction concept The Aether Age a real book that Hadley Rille Books published a couple years ago. He also helped me make real my dream of a new book in the style of the old Ace Doubles by giving up one of his novellas to form half of it. I sometimes forget that he wasn't technically a collaborator on my antho Things We Are Not--though he did provide its awesome title story, reprinted here--because the whole time I was working on it I was constantly chatting with him by email about it and getting his insight about things. And the second story that I acquired for the M-Brane SF magazine's first issue was his. It was a stunner, and I knew that I was in touch with someone who was going to be important. So when he mails me and asks me if I want to do something, it's easy to sign up.

Another thing I like about the Weird Bard Press plan right now is that we're not doing a periodical. It's too much of grind right now at this stage of things. I like magazines, and I think Brandon does too, but we're not in that mode this year. FU was finally cancelled a few months ago after its last issue didn't quite make it all the way to press, and I have not--despite some low-level clamor for it--committed to bringing back M-Brane SF. And I'm not going to this year. I'm not saying never, but it's not the right year for it. So, we're going to do stand-alone books and focus first and fully on Torn Pages. It's exciting for me right now because I really have no more idea what this book is really going to end up being than anyone else does, but I know for sure that it's going to be super-cool and very interesting. This certainty comes from knowing that it has a great editor with a great concept.
Here is the final piece of my Justin Bieber fan fiction trilogy (which I have just now this moment declared a trilogy because I have a third item). The first was "Your Justin Bieber" (2011) in which a second-person narrator has an unexpected romance with the pop star, but it's indicated that maybe the whole thing might be more about the archetypal figure that JB might suggest than about JB himself. The second item is "The Exorcist Playset" (2012) in which JB appears JBmug2only as a literal prop in a secondary role in what is otherwise a piece of Exorcist fan fiction. In this story, he is literally an action figure, a sort of animatronic doll that stars in a kid's weird play-time fantasy and who perhaps helps this kid work his way out of what may or may not be a real demonic possession. In the writing of the following story, I have brought the subject matter closer to home and let myself be embarrassed. And for this occasion, the story seems like it should have a long and ponderous title like…

You Will Find That Heart/Smiley-Thing Deep in Here, XOXO JB
by Christopher Fletcher

Woven into the texts of Nemesis—where the unknown author famously makes an extraordinary observation about a universe where “dark planets rolls without aim, where they roll in their horror unheeded, without knowledge or luster or name”—is a concept with which I utterly disagree. I can say now, as the world unwinds around us, that there really is an aim after all. It’s just one with which humans will have nothing to do.
            —Justin Bieber, PhD, from The Diary of Fthaggua

When he presented you, at the Xmas Eve party a couple years ago, with the next year’s Justin Bieber calendar, you were both amused and acutely embarrassed. Because it was a light-hearted gesture, honoring with well-intended humor the fact that you had unabashedly declared yourself a JB fan some time ago and were willing to admit it to anyone and stand up for its legitimacy against any opponent. And because you know that it’s likely an ongoing source of derision that you are too old, too serious, too old, too smart, too old, too professionally accomplished, too old, too cerebral and brainy, and mostly just plain too goddamned fucking old to be a belieber. It was like being handed a piece of pornography, by someone who knows exactly what kind of porn you’re into, in front of a whole bunch of other people who don’t now and won’t ever get your weird kink.
            Your favorite months are June and September, especially September where he wears Wayfarer sunglasses like yours.
            Because you are very busy with work and life—and because you are not a consumer of the kind of media where the foibles and failures of celebs are celebrated—you miss for a few days the news of JB’s arrest in Florida for drunken driving and resisting arrest. People close to you are amused that it falls to them to fill you, of all people, in on the latest of a series of ridiculous calamities surrounding this young man. You have to tell them that despite what they’d assumed was a deep and abiding fandom on your part, you just plain hadn’t heard about it yet. But when you get a few free moments away from anyone else’s gaze, you google the fuck out of the situation and find his mugshots. Though you’d not admit it to anyone else, you are relieved and delighted that he looks—even under the duress of drunken incarceration—not like a bleary-eyed loser like most people do under those conditions, but kind of pretty and sweet and crowned with mostly intact hair. He smiled for the cop cam.
This was about the last you’d hear of JB for a while. The incident supposedly motivated him to change his life, and part of that change was receding from pop celebrity. He cancelled his remaining performing and recording schedule. He declined media appearances and interviews. You remember hearing that he had decided to devote himself to matters of “faith and philosophy,” which you’d naturally assumed was some kind of meaningless fake-ass nonsense well in line with his previous professions of a sort of cheesy pop star Christianity.
            You remember liking a lot that full-page pic of him in his book Just Getting Started where he is on stage and he looks wet, sweat-slicked, very earnest, and yet behind him is a big lit-up sign that says PRAY. In its caption, he tells you that he is living proof that dreams come true. You cringe at this naïve cliché and you are embarrassed both for him (for saying it) and for yourself (for reading it and owning a copy of the book). He tells you to believe and to pray, and you cringe, believe and pray and pray and all  your childish dreams will come true, but he’s so fucking beautiful anyway, so you ignore this patent moronic nonsense and you decide, once again, once again, one more time, one final time, to like him anyway because he has, at least, a gorgeous voice even if he’s dumb as a bag of hammers. You occasionally still enjoy “As Long as You Love Me”  and “Boyfriend” when they recur on your playlist, but you assume that the next time you’ll see any sight of JB is when he is eventually dredged up as an F-list celeb alongside a hundred-year-old Joan Collins, a cyborg Kirstie Alley, a fat and drunk Marilyn Manson and one or another stupid Kardashian for a season of Celebrity Cook-Off hosted by an ever-more-raspy Guy Fieri.
            And of course some hot new kid quickly emerges to fill the Bieber niche, that pop-cultural hole that must always have a lithe young male occupant, and after a year or so of no new news of him at all, everyone quits caring about or even looking for the whereabouts of Justin Bieber, former pop star.

You come home from work late on Friday night—after cooking an Ancient Roman wine dinner or some such pretentious nonsense—and J says: “Can’t wait to tell you this shit: Your Boy has moved in behind us, in the house across the alley!” You honestly don’t know to which one of “Your” “Boys” he may be referring since that is the language he uses for any dude that he thinks that you might possibly think is cute. It could mean any of several thousands of dudes. It could be anyone. But seeing your exhausted confusion, he clarifies: “The Biebs. Fuckin’ JB. Here in Argos-Bellona, here in our back yard! Just moved in today.” And you again feel way behind on current events because this was supposedly widely reported on Channel 5. Stunned, you look out the back door, across the alley. Through a window in the house across the way you see a silhouette in motion that you can imagine matches JB’s.

You locate online and start reading daily the copious blog posts of the new Justin Bieber, the former pop celeb who now lives across the alley from you, whose backyard is in full view of your second-floor balcony. One day he writes,
            “The Outer God Nokkthathuas, typically represented as a blood-tinged cyclone or a shroud of blowing red dust possibly concealing some sort of unseen, unconscious creature, is perhaps a more appropriate entity for consideration nowadays—as the Dust once again threatens to enshroud the planet—than great Cthulhu itself, but the fanatics of the Cult Cthulhu will not give up their adolescent fantasy that they are finally getting noticed by the gods. They bear a mutant baby and they think it means love from the Void.”
            And, yeah, nearly all of it is just as impenetrable as that passage.
            One afternoon you sit on your balcony and gaze across the way. Behind his own house, JB sits at a table in his backyard. He wears nothing but board shorts and sunglasses, as if he might be ready for a swim, but you suspect (to your despair) that he is never going to get wet in that in-ground swimming next to his table. Because when he sits at that table he does nothing but type and click on a laptop computer. Sometimes he does this long into the evening.  Sometimes, after he has stopped for the day, you check his blog and see that he has just added another long and abstruse post about Cthulhist theology. On Twitter he might say something like, “Some people still want some kind of heart or smile from me. It’s fuckin’ comin’.”

You go to a local bookshop where you have an appointment to read aloud passages from your novel The Days of the Dust and the Diane Rehm Show and hopefully sign copies of the book, purchased by  readers from the merchant who invited you there. Hardly anyone to date has bought it yet so you hope for a small breakthrough here.
            The bookstore manager has arranged several rows of chairs in front of a table that you sit upon cross-legged and read to the guests. The passage you choose involves a dangerous, revelatory encounter between two young men aboard an airship cast in the form of a dream about alternate-history ancient Greeks who are uncovering an ancient horror on an asteroid that rolls in the dark between the Earth and the Moon.
            In the front row sits JB. He is somewhat disguised, a Cardinals baseball cap pulled low on his forehead, Wayfarer sunglasses, but it’s plainly him. You attempt to avoid glancing at him too many times, deciding to observe his obvious desire for anonymity since no one else seems to have realized who he is. He listens to you read, occasionally taps on an iPad resting on his lap. During the question/answer period, he doesn’t ask any questions. Afterward, he buys a copy of the book but he does not get in line to have you sign it.
            After he leaves, the bookstore manager says, “That dude who was sitting in the front, the one with the Cards cap, looked exactly like Justin Bieber.”
            “I guess it could have been him,” you say, and the guy just laughs. Maybe he doesn't know that JB actually lives in the city now. Or maybe he just can’t picture JB coming into his store for any reason.
Later that night, you take a look at the blog and read this headline:
            “Nokkthathuas and the Zeppelin: A-R Kanayda Shrouds a Deep Truth Inside a Family Drama.”
            His first paragraph: “This evening I listened to the author read from the book at a local bookstore. Even though I’d already read it, I kind of wanted to see the person who wrote it in person, speaking aloud some of its weird words, hearing his actual human voice saying these things.”
            Below this paragraph, inset within the post, is a picture of you from that night’s reading copied from a fresh post on your own website. You feel, for just a moment, quite nearly almost as embarrassed as you felt about the calendar because you understand that you are actually thrilled and flattered to appear on JB’s blog. On the new JB’s fuckin’ blog, which makes not a lick of sense. You’re a fucking fanboy so you do not care that what follows—his nine thousand word review/analysis of just one short segment of your novel—is nearly incomprehensible. And you love the fuck out of it when he cross-posts his new entry—about your story—to Twitter with the comment: “There’s a weird smiley/heart thing deep in here.” You could just die. Die.

One night you have a lengthy dream in which JB intermittently appears in various roles and guises: college friend, co-worker, boss, lover, brother, son. At one point, shortly before you awaken, he is leaning into you as if to hug you, and you permit this hug and you also permit him to kiss you in an awkward hesitant manner until you both eventually agree to this intimacy fully and kiss wetly with fully open mouths. The streaming spit between you becomes somehow thick and sticky and stringy like strands of rubber cement or semen. It thickens until your faces are bound together in a gluey mass from which you try half-heartedly to escape.

About a week later, you daydream that maybe you could really someday quit your day-job and take up the novelist life because JB’s endorsement has somehow caused Days of the Dust to rise into Amazon’s Top 100 in both Literature and Science Fiction and it looks like you might actually get a decent royalty payment for the first time ever in your life. But then a week or so later, it falls down into the top 30,000 and then down into the top 100,000 and then continues to plummet from there into the millions. But you have another one ready to publish and you can just go ahead and use JB’s endorsement of the first one as a cover blurb on the second one, and so it goes.
You go to the grocery store after work, very late and in a hurry for a shortcut for the pasta dish that H wants tonight. You peer at jars of various pestos and pickles and olives and other cured and marinated things at the Italian kiosk where a store chef has prepared samples of porcini mushroom/chicken risotto for the customers. You wonder if there is a container of something flavorful and piquant and oily that you can just dump into a pan with whole-wheat rotini and parm and be done with it.
            JB says, “This looks really good, but I have no idea how to make it.”
            You look up, turn around, and see him. He looks exactly like he did at the bookstore reading, sunglasses, Cards cap, t-shirt, board shorts. And he is looking at you. And his comment about not knowing how to make something was, in fact, actually spoken to you. Then you realize that you did not change clothes before you left work and that you are wearing a dirty green chef coat and black pants with pictures of fish printed on them. Of course, upon interacting with JB in person for the first time, Fucking Of Course! you’d look like this. And, Of course: he certainly thinks that you are the store chef who is handing out the risotto samples because that dude is not at his station at that moment.
            “It’s not that hard,” you say, checking quickly to make sure that you even know for sure what “it” is. The display surrounding the risotto samples has all the stuff that the store wants you to buy to make porcini/chicken risotto. But you disapprove of how it’s really just a bag of some kind of fake-ass risotto product to which you add chicken and the store-brand cheese. You disapprove of the lack of fresh mushrooms, white wine, freshly grated cheese, fresh parsley. “It’s not that hard,” you say again. “But this isn't the way to do it.”
            Though you resist the act of literally taking his hand in yours, the effect is similar as you lead him around the store and drop items into his hand basket: Arborio rice, shallots, garlic, assorted earthy shrooms, flat-leaf parsley, a box of chicken stock, a bottle of pinot grigio, a tub of grated parmesan. “It’s easy,” you adhere, “as long as you remember that you need about three times as much stock or other liquid as rice. What kind of kitchen equipment do you have?”
            “I have everything,” he says. “I’m just not good at using it.”
            “Just remember,” you say, “to not skimp on the heat when you start the initial sauté.  Heat is your friend. And don’t lose patience with the rice. It will be correct at about twenty-two minutes. Google some directions or a YouTube vid if you don't remember exactly what I have told you.”
            Fuck no, he says, you need to come to my place and show me.
            Stopped, as they say, “dead in your tracks,” you say this next thing, feeling like a totally stupid tool: “Um. I don’t know about that. But maybe. Do you live in the neighborhood?”
            You, he says, know goddamned well where I live.

When you finally return home that evening, H has already eaten dinner. You are amazed that his mood is good and that not a word is spoken about how late you are. He does not ask what kept you, does not disparage the fact that the groceries that you brought home are too late for tonight’s obsolete  plan. He does not inquire as to where you were, and so you do not have to tell him right now the truth that you followed JB to his home behind yours and that you were at once excited and creeped out when JB changed clothes in front of you (which consisted only of removing his shirt and swapping one pair of shorts for another) and that you were delighted to guide his hands, your long monkey arms wrapped around him from behind, as you taught him how to properly chop an onion and smash a garlic head, and how proud you were that you actually did not get a hard-on and knock it against the small of his back while you were doing this. Because no one would have believed you about that.
            And how, when you said goodnight just before you drove your car around the corner to your own house, you did not, emphatically not, accept his offer of a kiss goodnight, your kiss-spit remaining just a gluey rubber cement dream.
starfishI did resolve a few days ago to move along the long-in-progress work-in-progress to a this-year completion. This afternoon I roughed out this scene that seems to solve a problem that I was having the last time I tried to get past a certain point. These are the new words of the new chapter, fresh and unedited...

The Starfish

Below lay the tomb world, the immutable cause-and-effect world of the demonic. At the median extended the layer of the human, but at any instant a man could plunge—descend as if sinking—into the hell-layer beneath.  Or: he could ascend to the ethereal world above…
--From The Three Stigmata of Palmer Eldritch by Philip K. Dick

So there’s two “yous” in these notes, Chris, you my traveling companion, my step-dad, and then there’s the you of this journal. That second you I don’t always use, because it’s dumb, like “Dear Diary”-dumb, like I am a girl on a twentieth-century TV show addressing in the second-person a cheap blank book with flowers on the cover and a chintzy lock that any mean brother or sister could easily break. But sometimes I speak nonetheless to this journal directly even though it’s dumb. Chris: you are taking me on a trip today for a reason that I can’t guess at and which I haven’t bothered to ask about because I really want to go no matter what your own motive is. Diary: you will suck up my thoughts when I have them and then recede like something dimly perceived in binoculars, moving away, when I don’t have them.
                 We’re in the base of the Ankh, that giant metal thing from the 1960s that towers over the downtown of Argos-Bellona, because it is the only local structure suitable to be retrofitted as a dock for airships. You texted me a few days ago that the airship Atreides was arriving in town, stopping for a couple hours to take on new passengers for a journey northward to Transcanada and then later to Gotham. You implied by the very act of letting me know about this opportunity that I would be excited about it because I would hope that an old friend of mine would still be among the crew of that ship and that I would reunite joyously with him. But you were kind enough to not actually say a single word about this possibility—that he would be there—because you are worried that it will break my heart—and then eventually yours—when we board the ship and discover that he is not there anymore. It will break my heart, but I am ready for it, and I am ready to let it not break yours. I will wear a tough guise, a face of great confidence, a mask that proves that I am still excited about this airship journey because I am doing it with you, and certainly not because I expect to see someone else. You will believe this because it’s what will make the first few hours aboard so much easier on us both. This is always how I’ve done it, Chris, even when Dad was still with us. It needs to be even more this way now that we are alone together. Believe me. I am wiser than your years.Read more... )
dragonfruitA passage from the work-in-progress. A few people might recognize the situation of it from when I posted a whole bunch of the story's "Part One" on this journal some time back. But this is from Part Two. Part Three is close. And that's the last part. So hopefully it will be out of my system yet this year.

A-R passed much of the day fiddling about with his Dune site, Bene Tleilax. A large number of new (and mostly ridiculous) fiction postings had accumulated and they needed cataloguing. He sorted them slowly into their scores of categories—hurt/comfort, Chapterhouse Era, Jihad Era, many dozens of permutations of slash-fic, Duncan this-and-that, Harkonnens, et cetera—and added the appropriate tags, rejected a few that were not complete enough entries. He answered a few emails and social media posts, mostly related to the suicide panic of a few weeks previously. He explained again that the infamous “The End?” pic was not a suicide note, that he would not himself commit suicide, that he discouraged people generally from committing suicide. Enough now with suicide, said he to all.
        Read more... )

A little Halloween fun for all my readers and writer-pals. Happy holidays, y'all...

The Exorcist Playset

            Last October, the whole world seemed like a slow-mo image that I perceived through a layer of stained glass, a place to which I was anchored, yet oddly detached. And a weird confluence of public and personal events happened last October, that all had something to do with Hell on Earth. One:  a next-door neighbor, Detective Lance Kinderman of the Saint Louis Metropolitan Police, who’d been probing into the matter of the local “Gemini Killer” serial murders, turned out to be the Gemini Killer himself, the monster who’d stuffed his victims’ mouths full of rosaries. Two: I got an acting job in the tenth remake of an old horror film, my first such job in a few years and one I didn’t much like after all. Three: my recently-deceased brother’s son—Regan, age fourteen—became my legal ward and moved into my home; and, four: the Kenner toy company revivified an old thing called The Exorcist Playset, a toy based on a novel from the 1970s.

            The original Exorcist Playset was a box of plastic and cardboard open on two sides, resembling a bedroom, with a plastic four-poster bed in it upon which rested the action figure of a demon-possessed girl. Levers in the cross-festooned base of the toy would raise and lower the bed—SUPERNATURAL HORROR!—and move dressers and other objects up and down on posts—LIFE-LIKE DEMONIC MOTION! The girl figure was articulated to the extent that you could make her sit up in bed and make her head spin all the way around, though her limbs were mostly immobile. Instead of being equipped with swinging joints, they were instead formed on a skeleton of flexible wire that you could bend a few times before they eventually broke. The press of a button on the playset’s base elicited the scratchy, metallic playback of a recorded voice saying at random such things as “The sow is mine!” and “I am the Devil!” and “The piglet will die!” HEAR THE SHOCKING VOICE OF EVIL!

            Action figures of two priests—one old and one young—could be placed here and there in the room, left feet inserted into pegs in the floor, but they always stood frozen in a sort of holy rigor mortis, one forever clutching a rosary and the other forever wielding an oversized Lucite bottle of holy water. A weirdly agnostic toy, the original Exorcist Playset never promised to resolve the tension of the underlying story, instead leaving its outcome to the imagination of the kid playing with this nearly static scene. In that sense, it was a great toy.

Read more headspinning horror... )
This will be an intellectually lazy post, largely devoid of cross-references, just an off-the-cuff reaction to a big old Fail that I just now happened to detect on Twitter. It seems that Weird Tales, that on-and-off venerable institiution of speculative fiction, which had apparently been having a halcyon age under the editorship of Ann VanderMeer, had at some point changed ownership and editorship, and--bafflingly--its current editor decided they'd print a chapter of Victoria Foyt's novel Save the Pearls. Did you click that link in the previous sentence? If not, go ahead and do it. Never will you see a douchier author pic. 

Anyway, the reason for much brouhaha is that Foyt's novel is heavily larded with racist tropes and language. Unfortunately, I have read more words of it than I'd have ever liked because I read this entire good and damn-long post on Requires Only that You Hate, a vivisection of Foyt's book complete with many quotations from its tedious prose.

Which is what befuddles me about the Weird Tales editor wanting to publish this (they have since backed down, cancelled the plan and sort of apologized, by the way). Its language and concept is so fucking tiresome, even if it weren't also so offensive. I hate, Hate and HATE stories where they "cleverly" flip the real-world convention, such as: women are now the dominant oppressive sex, blacks are now the dominant racist overlords, homos are now the norm and str8s are oppressed. It's trite on its face, it's always more offensive than it intends to be, and it's always a big epic fucking fail. Combine a big trite failed cliche with an author who poses like a poseur on a bunch of leather couches and add Foyt's dead-tired prose, and you got that dumb "Pearls" book. 

So why would Weird Tales, of all venues, want to fuck away their rep on this shite? It boggles. It ain't even "weird" and it's not of pro quality either. I guess to hell with that zine.
 I happened upon a site this morning which was comprised of Justin Bieber-based fan fiction. At first I assumed it was a slash site, but was surprised to discover that it was actually not. But what was it? A cursory glance through its contents proved that it was a fan fiction site that seems to be by and for teenage girls, and its fiction consists primarily of thinly-disguised versions of the authors having romantic liaisons with Justin Bieber. So, of course, I decided to try my own hand at the conventions of what seemed to be a ridiculous genre. Over the course of the day, a few minutes here and a few minutes there, I banged out the following item, a piece of Justin Bieber fan fiction that I have decided is of MUCH too high a literary quality to post on the Justin Bieber Fanfiction Archive ;) Instead, I shall bide my time until a pro market emerges for such material or until someone solicits a novel-length treatment!  LOL

While this story is probably a totally ridiculous waste of time, it made me think about something seriously. Why exactly is it that I and apparently most people in my peer group find the adulation of Justin Bieber to be so ridiculous? A lot of very legitimate answers come to mind, but could there also be a streak of plain old meanness underlying it? He's just a kid who makes some music that isn't really to my taste, but that does that make him and all his fans a bunch of idiots? Probably not. So while I was at first planning to write a really snarky parody/pastiche of some of the material I found on the fan fic site, I almost immediately dropped that idea. What I came up with instead is still pretty preposterous and will hopefully cause some laughter and derision, but it's a lot nicer to its subject matter than what I had expected. 

"Your Justin Bieber"

You did not know, during those days of the beach house, that for everyone there is a Justin Bieber. Not necessarily Justin Bieber himself, but the concept of him, an ineffable want that cannot be set aside until one knows him. When you consider it now, in these soft terms, you wonder if he ever was anything but a concept, and never a real young man at all. You wonder this, as you stand again in that beach house's airy rooms, each one almost unchanged by time, even all these years later: Was he real? Was there ever really a Justin Bieber, or just that aching want that was, at last, effaced from the heart by age and time’s erosion?
            That this house still exists on this beach assures you that at least some of it was real. Yes, you regain confidence in your own history, and you know that while, for most people, Justin Bieber is an archetype with many names, a necessary totem in the passage through age and disappointment, for you he was more literal. For it was here in these rooms and on that beach that you loved—or at least imagined that you could have loved—the living man, the real Justin Bieber. As you linger, you will consider clutching the pillows of the bed to your face, inhaling deeply. Really, you wonder, do you really believe that the smell of his hair and sweat would still adhere to pillowcases and sheets, as if they had never been changed in all these years? Eventually you will lie down in that bed again, but not yet, not before a long time spent outside gazing at the sea…

The way it always happens:
            You wonder exactly why you have been sent on this particular mission, a glorified babysitting assignment, watching over a kid with perhaps too much fame perhaps too early. You don't know him, even by reputation, but the Agency has filled these gaps in your knowledge, because you spent a dozen hours on a plane filling your head with trivia about one Justin Bieber. He is "highly unstable" you have been told. His mother is crazy, they have said. But you see no objective evidence of any of this in his file. "He is completely unable to tend to even his most basic needs on his own," the file says. "He requires continuous maintenance." But the information in the dossier belies this: you find a video of the boy roasting a hog, buried in a pit of coals. His face is stained with soot, and he looks like he has stumbled right out of Lord of the Flies. He mouths a silent "Fuck you," and grins at a camera that he aims at himself. You start to like him a bit more already, even though you know he will prove to be yet another entitled piece of pop-cultural debris, a complete tool of the industrial/douche media complex. And your own son is already older than this kid, and you did not enjoy even his upbringing. You wonder why they could not have not sent you anywhere else, perhaps to interrogate death row inmates, or salve the egos of Middle Eastern despots, or force the last few aging Nazis to confess their crimes. But no, to babysit a teenage millionaire boy-monster, that's the work they give you. But as your tiny plane lands on a steaming tarmac on some isolated island, you watch his video again and you admit that you look forward to meeting this Justin Bieber.

            It takes no time for you know that you may be in the presence of your personal Justin Bieber, the Justin Bieber as concept, the Justin Bieber as premise. That he is literally the human incarnation of Justin Bieber seems almost beside the point. You are having dinner with him, a massive spread of take-out food that you picked up at a local taqueria. He eats it with great enthusiasm, so hungrily, as if he has been starved for days. He thanks you for the food, lavishing compliments, even as he chews and swallows. It's as if he thinks you cooked it yourself. He sips wine that you have decided to allow him to share with you. In no objective respect is he any different than any other hungry teenage boy, yet you cannot throw off the sensation that he is that undeniable thing that you did not know you were missing. This train of though leads in circles to ruin, so you engage him in what you assume is conversation of interest to a young man his age, and you drink a lot more wine. He laughs a lot, and he does not seem like he needs any help at all from a woman more than twice his age.

            You slip gently from bed, not looking behind you, pretending that you did not notice that sometime during the night Justin Bieber had slipped into bed next to you, lying on top of the sheet. You decide that the amount of wine you consumed the night before will be your ironclad excuse: you simply did not notice, you did not wake up. Dressing quietly, the sleeping entity still lying next to the dent you left in the mattress, you decide to set aside the fact that he was there, that you noticed when he had laid down, that you could feel a trembling from him as if he were stifling great heaves of sobbing for a long time until he at last fell still. But you do look back at the bed and are surprised that he looks nothing like the child/angel/mannequin-thing generated by his public persona machine. Lying there in his underwear, dead asleep, he looks like a very human young man. His mouth hangs open slightly, he snores gently, his hair is a tangled corona about his head. You ignore this and head out of the house.

            At the market, you buy eggs and chorizo. You carefully select perfectly ripe avocados and mangos. Bunches of green onions and cilantro fill your basket, and you ask for two dozen freshly griddled tortillas. You shop as if you are preparing for a very important meal, and this briefly makes you feel stupid. But, in fact, you are gathering supplies for a breakfast that you will cook for Justin Bieber. Though you still have not comprehended Justin Bieber as a concept, as the scratch for the itch that you did know you had, you cannot deny that you cannot wait to return to the beach house and see if he is awake and if he wants to eat with you again. This shames you and delights you at the same time. You squeeze a chunk of queso fresco and you wonder about its slight yield under your fingertips. Your fingers think it feels likes digging into Justin Bieber’s shoulders.

            Do not say it, you tell him, as he tries to say it. Do not say this thing, you tell him, silencing him with your own lips pressed to his, because you know it’s not true. But you also know that he does not know it: boys his age lie all the time, even when they mean to be as sincere as a bleeding heart. They cannot comprehend their own emotions, not even one such as Justin Bieber. You have been with many men, yet you know that he has never been with a woman. This in itself seems preposterous: yes, he is young, but he is powerful and in his prime and can have whatever he wants anytime he asks. But he says it is his first time, and you somehow know that he is telling you the truth. Do not say that you love me, you think as hard as you can, yet you do not say the whole sentence aloud. Some shambling old crag of a mother in you wants to tell him to wait until it is right, until he is with someone he loves. Experience tells you that this is nonsense: wait for what? For unfulfilled expectations and disappointment? And, when it is done, you must admit that it is you who wanted it even more than he did. You wanted your Justin Bieber.

            He eats his breakfast enthusiastically, sitting in his underwear at the patio table. That bangsy hair that is the only thing that one ever notices in images of him does not exist this morning. It is tousled, strands heap in tangles and lay plastered by dried sweat to his forehead. “I know it didn’t really mean anything,” he says through a mouthful of scrambled eggs and avocado. “I know I was dumb to say I love you. But I still hope you at least like me a little bit.” You tell him that you do.

            And again, now, as always:
            You are in an airport in Europe. “Hello,” says a voice somewhere behind you. You turn around and see him for the first time in twenty years. Twenty years of age have not effaced his essential youth, though he seems to carry the weight of those years behind his eyes. “You look well,” he says. “You look good.”
            “So do you,” you say. A man in outré carnival garb stands behind Justin Bieber and snaps a pic of the two of you together. You do not know if he is a random fan or perhaps a lone paparazzo—Justin is no longer attended by the swarms of cameras that pursued him in his youth. They have moved on to new Justin Biebers. But as you look at him again, now, you’re not sure that you ever did.
Hmm. I'm not quite sure what's up with the following item. It's certainly not an account of a real event. But it bears some resemblance to reality. It'd be ridiculous for me to deny any connection with my day-jobbery.

            “What you doing up in here, nigguh?” says Trog. “This is a Zone No-Go for you and your kind now, nigguh!”
            Bios twists the big thick red control cuff that wraps the gray gun barrel, resetting it to Lift-Pin. He opens fire on Trog, blasting him back against the break room wall, then gradually lifting him upon the end of the blazing blue beam until the fucker is pinned up in a corner by the ceiling. “Piss on you, Trog!” Bios says. “I’m here for that bitch Debbiform, and this time I’m getting the job done!”
            Trog squeals, his skinny ass mashed in a corner where two walls and the ceiling meet. Bios lets him squeal like that for a few seconds and then releases the beam. The fucker falls to the floor and lays there squealing and coughing.

Weeks ago:

            Bios suspected he was about to get fired from his job at the nursing home because of the machinations of Debbiform and her confederates. So Bios started to make his move against her, because she had already killed over thirty of the home’s residents and was working on ending ten more of them. She was using her own personal brand of Jesusism to decide who needed to be poisoned.
            “They said we can use the Jesus Glass to make the decisions,” she kept saying. “It’s allowed under state law.” The Jesus Glass was this ridiculous contraption that was something rather like an old TV monitor with a keyboard attached to it, though the keyboard only had six big keys on it, each one bearing a different style of holy cross. It had a rabbit ears-style antenna and it got its info out of the air, analog-style, broadcast from a nearby church.
            For some reason the Jesus Glass never gave any advice other than that which hastened the pain and eventual death of the home’s residents.
            So Bios had knocked the Jesus Glass off the steel prep table where it sat in the kitchen and it broke all over the floor. They tried to make him pay two hundred fifty dollars to buy a new Jesus Glass, but Bios told them to all go and fuck off, and that finally got him fired.

            Debbiform starts screaming her head off when Bios steps into the kitchen. “Oh no! Oh hell no!” she shrieks. “You get out of here!  You can’t be in here!”
            “Fuck you!” Bios says, turning the gun’s control cuff, selecting a new setting. He chooses Acid-Blast and fires a few bolts at her. She screams some more because the beams burn like concentrated sulfuric acid.  She runs to the sink and tries to splash water on the burns. Then she grabs the spray hose from the dish sink and tries to spray the burns. She gets a lot of water all over the floor.
            Bios shoots her again. “Quit trying to treat your wounds!  It will do you no good anymore.” He adjusts the control again, this time to Shrinker. He fires at her, hits her square in the forehead and she shrinks by two feet. She isn’t tall anyway, but now she’s short as a little kid.
            “Oh fuck!” she screams, realizing what Bios has done to her. He pulses her again with another short blast and she shrinks another six inches. Then he dashes down the length of the room to the prep table where the new Jesus Glass sits. He knocks it off the table. Now their second Jesus Glass is a broken pile of junk.
            “Fix it, faggot!” Debbiform shrieks.  “Fix this right now!”
            Instead he shoots her one, two, three, four more times, short little blasts of pink light striking her, each one depriving her of more size. Now she’s about as tall as a Chihuahua puppy. “Now I’m gonna kick you to death!” Bios says, stomping toward her. She scuttles underneath a refrigerator. She’s so short now, that she doesn’t even have to duck to make the six-inch clearance.
            Bios selects a pair of eighteen-inch tongs from a rack of hanging utensils. He’s pleased that Debbiform has trapped herself under the refrigerator, but now he realizes that he can’t reach all the way to the back wall, where she hides, with those tongs. He considers finding a broom with which to run her out of there but then he’d have to leave the kitchen, go to the mop closet or the storeroom to find a broom, and then the miniscule turd might escape while he is way. So then he has a better idea. 
            “You better get out from under there, bitch, and submit to being placed into captivity, or you will seriously regret it!” He sets a two-quart saucepan on the stove and empties a greasy jug of cooking oil into it. He turns the burner on full blast.
           “I ain’t coming out until you say you will make me big again!”
            “Well that’s not ever happening, you murdering monster. I wrecked your new Jesus Glass and in a few minutes I’ll be putting an end to your fucking chicanery once and for all.” While the oil heats, Bios finds a big gallon jar in the very fridge under which Debbiform is hiding. It’s full of brine and a few stray hamburger dill chips. He dumps all that out in a sink.
            Then Leotard enters the kitchen. She looks like a stack of tires topped with a fringe of frazzled fiberglass hair. “If you have any wisdom, Leotard,” Bios says, “you’ll get out of here.  I don’t have the kind of iron-clad evidence on you like I do on Debbiform, but I’ll still cut you down in a second.” He waves the gun at the squat newcomer. “Because I fucking hate you, whether you did anything or not.”
            Bios knows that Leotard is, in fact, probably complicit in Debbiform’s crimes. She is a Jesus Glass nut like Debbiform. Always praying to her fake-ass TV god and shit like that. Suddenly seized with anger and hatred, Bios points the gun, still set on Shrinker, at Leotard and opens fires. He doesn’t let off the trigger for a few long seconds. The beam warbles and whines and bleebles and Leotard gets smaller and smaller and smaller until she is finally drilled down to the smallest possible size: about as big as an adult cockroach.
            “Aw fuck!” Bios says, looking at the power reading on the gun. He’s discharged a lot of power. Resisting the temptation to stomp the life out of Leotard, he instead shouts at her: “It’s gonna be a while before this recharges!  Try not to get killed in the meantime.  Not that I’m going to make you big again either, you dumb conservative doxy.”
            Now the oil on the stove is hot. Bios lifts the pan off the stove and lowers it toward the floor, toward the underside of the refrigerator under which Debbiform cowers. He flings the pot of hot oil over the floor underneath the fridge. Since there is water on the floor from Debbiform’s thrashing about earlier, it makes a pleasing sizzle as it slicks across the quarry tile.
            Debbiform screams as she first sees and then feels the burning oil slick. In a second, she is out from under the fridge, stomping her feet furiously, trying to kick off hot oil residue. Bios grabs the tongs, clamps down and seizes his miniature enemy.
           Debbiform screams and writhes, clamped in aluminum teeth, as Bios lifts her from the floor and raises her above a prep table. The pickle jar waits. He lowers her through the mouth of the jar and lets go with the tongs. Debbiform collapses into the bottom of the pickle jar, screaming. Bios leans over the jar and shouts down into it, “Fuck you!  Fuck you and die!” He slaps the lid on top of the jar and then rummages in a drawer. Finding a paring knife, he uses it to punch a few rude holes into the jar’s aluminum lid. “Air holes!  Not that you’ll need them for long!”

            A few minutes later, Bios is carrying the jar containing the shrunken Debbiform. He is taking it outside the building. He notes that it has apparently occurred to her to try to call for help using her tiny cell phone.
            “Better call now. Where you’re headed, you might not be able to get a signal,” Bios  said.  “Hey, take a look at where you are going to end up!”
              They have entered the graveyard behind the home. Bios lowers the jar and aims Debbiform toward an object. It’s a headstone sitting ahead of a shabbily-dug hole. Says the stone: “Here Lies Fucking Debbiform: Murderer.”
            “Yeah! I’m in the graveyard!” Bios thinks he can hear Debbiform scream into her miniature phone. “He’s burying me alive in a jar!”
            “My religion’s got TV now, too, Debbiform!” Bios shouts, lowering the jar into the hole. “I saw what to do in my own Glass this morning. Great Cthulhu said it to me: Justice!”
            He laughs and laughs as he shovels dirt over the jar, as Debbiform’s shrieks become fainter and fainter.


Aug. 4th, 2009 09:42 pm
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 This is rather funny. Last night, while on Twitter, I saw and re-tweeted an update from Tor about some " 'Winds of Dune' bags" from Comic-Con being available, but at first glance I thought the message said "Wind-Bags of Dune." Which I thought was quite funny, so I mentioned in a comment ahead of the retweet that this is how I parsed it at first. Some time later Derek Goodman (@derekjgoodman on Twitter) replied to my tweet about the Wind Bags of Dune, wondering if the subject of it could be the Baron Harkonnen. I replied to him saying that if I were to have the  opportunity to write a Dune novel myself, I would title it "Dunes of Dune" (it would have dunes on the cover, too).  Then, after I got home from work today, I saw that Derek had replied that he had at first misread my title suggestion as "DUDES of Dune."  To which I then replied that I would keep that title in mind should I ever write any Dune slash-fic or the screenplay of a Dune-themed gay porn vid.  Right after I posted that update, Abby Rustad (@Merc_hyn_di on Twitter) saw it and indicated that she would be receptive to something called "Dudes of Dune" (I suspect that she and I share certain aesthetic appreciations).  So I asked her if she happened to know how to write music, because then we could collaborate on "Dudes of Dune: The Opera!"  Alas, she seems to know as little about composing music as I do, but we agreed that we ought to give it a shot (how hard can it be, after all?) But then our discussion drew in Kaolin Fire of GUD (@KaolinFire on Twitter) who also thought the opera/music plan was grand, and we three generally agreed that we ought to go ahead with the Dune opera once we get the basic gist of how to create an opera.   And THEN (sometime later), we heard from musician John Anealio (@JohnAnealio), composer and singer of original sf-themed songs (such as "Rachel Rosen," official theme song of M-Brane 6), who offered his assistance. Yeah, he knew we were just playing around...but he really IS a musician. So I wonder if we need to be getting more serious about this opera idea!

Anyway, I thought the whole Twitter-sequence was quite amusing in the way it developed simply from me retweeting that Tor update and mentioning my misread of it. Twin-moral of the story: Twitter is fun and opera-composing is within our reach!
 I think I'll occasionally publish or re-publish some of my juvenilia. The following (rather preposterous short story) was written shortly after my college days and appeared very briefly in a very tiny print run of a micro-press zine. It is an amazing artifact of data transfer and storage since it originated as a file created on a long-forgotten word processing program on one of the old pre-Windows PCs (you know, the black screen with a green blinking cursor and no graphics at all), then stored on a 5" disk and  transferred to the hard drive of an old Windows 3 PC (which had built into it the big old 5" disk drive as well as the 3 1/2" inch floppy drive--no CD yet). It was then converted into a Corell Word Perfect file and lived as such for a couple more years. Then I got a Windows 95 computer and MS Office, and moved the story by floppy disk from the old machine to the new one and converted it into an MS Word file. Then it moved, again by disk, to a Windows ME laptop, then  back to one and then another Windows 98 desktop PC. Finally, it moved by email and internet from the final PC into my MacBook. And now it goes to teh interweb... 


Christopher Fletcher

I guess we are just standing around in Bryan’s parents’ living room waiting for someone to decide what we are going to do.  It’s one of those never-ending nights when we are all away from school on summer vacation.  It’s always like there isn’t a damned thing to do but we’re going to spend all night doing it anyway. 

Bryan still has Amy Colberg hanging just off his shoulder, for the second year running, smiling broadly at him every other second like he is the most beautiful thing ever made by the Universe.  I am kind of on my own as usual, and Bryan has invited into  the house some chick named Kayla or Layla or something like that, and some awkward, gawky guy named either Dirk or Dork.